Farewells

After losing two friends in my life (to be exact, one friend and one senior from high school) , I have learnt that life is really sometimes too short and so fragile. They can just say goodbye all of a sudden and never be able to come back again. Often, we feel regret that we didn't spend more time with them when we can and have hell lot of reasons to say "maybe next time". Since that two incident that happened way too fast that I couldn't even catch up, I have been feeling very devastating and super emotional. Even thinking about receiving the news just freaks me out. I now then become so afraid of saying goodbye to good people in my life. People that gave me a big positive impact to my life, bringing laughter and joy for me, doing favorite activities together, creating great atmosphere and memories together. 

From then on, I get insecure even way more easily than I used to be. I'm worried that, one day, someone will say goodbye forever to me again or I will say goodbye to everyone and made them sad for losing a friend, a family member. I am also worry about regretting for everything that I haven't do when I should have done it when I have the chance. So I tend to appreciate positivity that others have given me. Even the smallest thing can make a great impact in my life. I cherish the people actually give me time, be there for me when I needed somebody, talk to me and constantly make me happy. I don't need materials, I need a friend that actually brings me laughter, make me feel comfortable being around them. Even being miles away, they still talk to me once in awhile, asking me how am I, and tell me how much they miss me, facebook me, call me or text me or video call me just to catch up. Even if it was just a short text, short call, short video calling session, it warms my heart a lot a lot. I thank you for your effort ( you will know who you are, I don't need to mention). 

Sent a friend to airport this morning at 3am. People who know me will know that I don't usually stay up late. Despite being so tired, I don't mind to spend the last few hours with a great friend because we won't know when will we be able to meet again. Despite knowing him for only a month, but it seems like we have known each other for quite sometime. It is so hard to find someone that actually appreciates the beauty of a camera, a photo that may seems to be meaningless to other people. But for us, it has deep meaning in every photo we take. No matter it turn out good or bad, there is always an untold story in every single frame that only people who truly understand the beauty of it will know. I have to thank him for teaching me some tips as well and giving comments of my photos. I felt so alive again for doing something that I love so much and having a friend to do it with you is more fun than doing it alone. 

Thank you for you f1.4, 2.8 etc etc etc mate! Hope that we can meet again soon in the future and hunt places for great photo shootings again. I wish you all the best for your future and may all your dreams come true. Keep in touch okay? Don't forget to miss us once in awhile. It was a great pleasure to meet a friend like you. Thank you for your compliment as well. It has been soooo long I haven't heard of any compliment from other people already. It means a lot too that you appreciate my "Shelby pie" as well. Hahahah! No one has ever told me that it was f delicious. Thank you mate, I truly appreciate it. I will see you when I see you again. Thanks for the great time and great memories. Take care. x

Friends come and go, but all of them have their own purpose in your life. Good ones give u great memories and bad ones give u lessons to learn. No matter how long or how short is your friendship, it doesn't really matters actually. What matters is what you have learned from them. Don't regret on the length of time you get to know with them, but cherish the time you have with them and make each moment last. At the end of the day, the regrets you have, is not appreciating the moment that you are able to hang out with them, not doing the things you can do with them before everything is too late. 

Don't worry so much of the negative people in your life, focus on the positive ones. If that someone is giving a negative impact to your life, leave before is too late. In contrast, cherish the ones that give you positivity and don't let go of any chance that you are able to be with them. 

Cheers.